I lost myself again recently

I lost myself again recently.

The way I am wired, there is always some new frontier to conquer, some new thing to pursue, and something I NEED to prove to myself that I can do.

It is what has always driven me.

It’s helped me create six companies, hundreds of jobs, and financial success.

It is also what has led me to fail with companies, with friendships, with relationships, and with myself.

It happened again just after the Christmas holidays.

I lost it.

The motivation, the smile on my face, the joy of working with some fantastic people and it caused me to spiral down for a bit.
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Poor sleep, habits, business acumen decline, and a creeping self-doubt.

What caused it?

Honestly, I cannot point to a single thing, I think it was trying to be too much for too many people. Not having said no, or set boundaries, on others, or myself….

Why am I writing this to you now?

To show you that even though I’m often upbeat and positive on social media, the reality is that one’s life is never THAT great.

I, too, struggle with all the things everyone else does despite all I have accomplished in the last twenty years. I am, of course, human.

Turning it around in March took long breaks from building, writing, hunting, and connecting.

Being myself on the couch, in the woods, by the ocean, restarting my exercise and meditation routines, prioritizing sleep, relationships, and healthy food.

I’m still climbing uphill, but I decided to write to you now so that if you are struggling, you will know you are not alone, that it happens to all of us, and that there is a way out.

If you need someone to talk to, I’m here.
All my best,

Peter

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